12-May-2024 Brownie

#Brownie, my buddy.

She's leaving the UK tomorrow.
She'll start her life in Thailand, and I'm continueing my daily life here in the UK.

We all were together today all day long and crying the end of the day.
Brownie, Bow, Leo, Idil and me.

I feel like sinking into the sea.
Every time my friends leave, I felt the same, which is farily painful.

Whenever my friends are complaining about their lives, I would say;
"That's okay. It's going to be okay. It's not the end of the world."

But I know, sometimes we can't control our feelings and emotions.

I prepared a card with my kind writing on it and so did my friends.
She's lovely and bubbly.

Whenever I was with her, I felt like I was her father.
I love her not as a girlfriend, but like a father.

I hope she'll be happy in Thailand.

 

#My mum

She had another surgery the other day, which successfully finished.
I spoke to her and heard her voice.

Her voice was better than a month ago.

Ah,
When she said "I can't tell the time because I can't see"
I felt endless sadness. I started crying.

I don't know what it is like if I can't see the light.

 

#Me

I'm not strong. And I knew it.

Sometimes I pretend to be stronger mentally than I normally am.
But, you know, I'm sort of sensitive.

I'm feeling really sad. Lots of things have came to me.
I knew that It will pass soon, and I will be fine soon.

I'm just telling you I am.